how did i get here?

my husband, my beautiful Dragon, died suddenly at 12:03 AM on 9 February 2009. there was a cold, lovely full moon and 3 feet of snow on the ground. i "slept" for the following 10 months and "woke" to the physical and emotional pain and torments of deep grief. i "woke" to find i had moved the day of his funeral and that i am lost. i am looking for me while i figure out the abstract, unanswerable questions that follow behind any death. my art has evolved. his death changed that as well because i am forever changed and will forever bear the mark of losing the only man i can ever love.
there is alive and there is dead and there is a place in between. i am here wholly in my heart for my children, but i feel empty inside at this time. i miss him. i have not gotten very far in my grief journey. i make no apologies for this.
this is my place, my blog, where i write to tell the universe that i am still here.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

burning photos

nothing really to say.
just one of those nights.
lonely.
burning photos off the computer and being hit with the knowledge that there will never be anymore.
missing him.
the music says it all.
such a cutie

Carmen Sophia loved to help him drive.
he was my scavenger in places i was afraid to go.
you're still the one.
Posted by abandonedsouls at 9:17 PM
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1 comments:

Judy said...

I love the photos.

March 31, 2011 at 4:55 PM

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