melancholy Bunny

Bunny has a new shirt.  she made it for spring hoping it would make her feel pretty, and perky.  and it did for about a day.  maybe a day and a half.  people always think Bunny is cute.  what they actually think is that Bunny is creative.  but Bunny is still melancholy a lot of the time.  life has not turned out the way she had hoped.

not even close.

so she wears this little mask to protect herself.  the eyes are the mirrors to the soul so she hides her soul.

she works so hard and worries about money.   she goes back to her apartment and works on her sewing commissions.  she also works on things for herself and her family. here is a little lap quilt she is working on made out of parts of his jeans.  and hers.  the ones she can no longer wear because............

she has lost a grand total of 32 pounds.  yes, Bunny has been doing good on her diabetes stuff.  

she has been adding to her daughter's wedding runner that is turning into an embroidered visual of her married life.  here is their first little house.  Bunny needs to do a little bit more sky and then put in the stars.  she also has to put in the driveway and front walk.  but Bun is taking a break from this little project to work on a commission.  she moves back and forth from projects so that she doesn't lose her edge.

Bunny is melancholy most of the time.  she has this new position coming up.  she's supposed to start April 8th.  she's been training and studying and working hard to be able to step in without any hiccups. she's nervous.  she wants to be the best Bun they ever had.

which is silly because she will be the only Bun they ever had.  no one at the Bear has ever done it like Bunny.  but she wants to do the paperwork right.  a company is all about it's paperwork.

she misses her Dragon.  this being the year of the Dragon, she sees them everywhere.  it makes her misty.  with this latest car accident she just really needs him.  she's scared.  she's in a rental car that the insurance is costing her $20 a day.  Lordy, Lord Lord but she hopes they fix her car very, very soon.

she had planned on getting her eyes checked.  not sure when she's gonna do that.  she's waiting on them to process her health care paperwork.  hopefully, they will go it quickly.  she had wanted a new mattress.  the one she is sleeping on is very old and lumpy and hurts her back.

so many little things that Bunny needs.  so many projects Bunny wants to and needs to work on.  no money and no time.  hopefully life will get better with this new position in the company.

Bunny just wanted to show off some of her work.  and she wanted to put it all out there like she does.  she misses him still.  she is draggy from not sleeping well.  she has worries.  she gets teary when she's down.  and now she's rambling because she needs to get back to her commission work and she's really tired.

if you read and have nothing to say, Bunny understands.  if you read and respond, please be a sweetie pie.  if you're grieving, Bunny understands that, too, and she wishes you peace.