how did i get here?

my husband, my beautiful Dragon, died suddenly at 12:03 AM on 9 February 2009. there was a cold, lovely full moon and 3 feet of snow on the ground. i "slept" for the following 10 months and "woke" to the physical and emotional pain and torments of deep grief. i "woke" to find i had moved the day of his funeral and that i am lost. i am looking for me while i figure out the abstract, unanswerable questions that follow behind any death. my art has evolved. his death changed that as well because i am forever changed and will forever bear the mark of losing the only man i can ever love.
there is alive and there is dead and there is a place in between. i am here wholly in my heart for my children, but i feel empty inside at this time. i miss him. i have not gotten very far in my grief journey. i make no apologies for this.
this is my place, my blog, where i write to tell the universe that i am still here.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Beach Bunny and her Dragon ~ 2009 ~ Part Two

but fate had other plans. oft times the greatest story, especially love stories, come to an end. a last day dawned,a last walk was taken,
a last smile filled with love was gifted.
a full moon rose initially colored warm in a frosty, cold sky...
but by the time it changed to silver, both the moon and Beach Bunny had a horrible fact to face.
Posted by abandonedsouls at 8:53 PM
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1 comments:

Widow in the Middle said...

I am humbled by your ability to go back to this day and document it the way you are now doing, in such a personal and beautiful manner.

December 22, 2009 at 11:40 PM

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