how did i get here?

my husband, my beautiful Dragon, died suddenly at 12:03 AM on 9 February 2009. there was a cold, lovely full moon and 3 feet of snow on the ground. i "slept" for the following 10 months and "woke" to the physical and emotional pain and torments of deep grief. i "woke" to find i had moved the day of his funeral and that i am lost. i am looking for me while i figure out the abstract, unanswerable questions that follow behind any death. my art has evolved. his death changed that as well because i am forever changed and will forever bear the mark of losing the only man i can ever love.
there is alive and there is dead and there is a place in between. i am here wholly in my heart for my children, but i feel empty inside at this time. i miss him. i have not gotten very far in my grief journey. i make no apologies for this.
this is my place, my blog, where i write to tell the universe that i am still here.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Beach Bunny and her Dragon ~ 2009 ~ Part Three

Beach Bunny had to watch her Dragon fly away to a place she was not yet allowed to go.devastated. grieving. all she had left were her memories and the tangible things left from his life.
after her Dragon had gone storms started moving in to surround her, to pull her down....
to try and drown her along with her sorrow. wave after wave hitting her until she felt...
she couldn't breathe. the sun hid....
Posted by abandonedsouls at 9:02 PM
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1 comments:

Widow in the Middle said...

These words and photos so strongly depict all that you have been experiencing - the storms, waves and hiding sun. But through them all, you have been honoring and loving your Dragon.

December 22, 2009 at 11:45 PM

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