i desperately wish that you hadn't died.
how did i get here?
my husband, my beautiful Dragon, died suddenly at 12:03 AM on 9 February 2009. there was a cold, lovely full moon and 3 feet of snow on the ground. i "slept" for the following 10 months and "woke" to the physical and emotional pain and torments of deep grief. i "woke" to find i had moved the day of his funeral and that i am lost. i am looking for me while i figure out the abstract, unanswerable questions that follow behind any death. my art has evolved. his death changed that as well because i am forever changed and will forever bear the mark of losing the only man i can ever love.
there is alive and there is dead and there is a place in between. i am here wholly in my heart for my children, but i feel empty inside at this time. i miss him. i have not gotten very far in my grief journey. i make no apologies for this.
this is my place, my blog, where i write to tell the universe that i am still here.
Friday, February 18, 2011
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7 comments:
Sending you a big hug. I sure understand that wish....
.... that says it all
I wish it too.
Jxxx
oh, the lunar anniversary...
xo
thank you all for stopping by. peace and love.
Big hugs to you...I have the same wish for my TJ.
I love this article, I hope bunny is doing good=) Thanks man!
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