she left after supper to go back to her place with her husband. he is leaving tomorrow on a plane. hard to see him go. so hard to see the sun set and know that this time of togetherness is over.
they are the lights of my life - fun, funny, decent, kind, sensitive, strong, protective, helpful, caring - i adore them both. i need them so much.
i wish this Christmas would never end; that the clock had broken and we were just sitting there talking and laughing forever.
i think that that is how i will always remember them; us; laughing and talking and just being together in that moment.
the best gifts do not come in wrapping paper. they come in cars and on airplanes and they wear clothes and they smile and talk and they call you "mom."
i wish he were here. i miss him so much when the children return to their lives. this "empty nest" would be a tad easier if i had his arms to turn to. but i will cuddle down in bed with the dogs and think about one day at a time. worry about one day. that's all i can handle.
$12,380 is what the VA wants paid back. it's their fault. i wrote to them. they admit it in their letter. my son and daughter got together to read the letter today. we are fighting it. we are going to file for a waiver. financial hardship. can't pay that back. not my fault if they kept sending me money.
my fingers are crossed. i hope they see reason and let one widow just slide on by. just let me go, please.
i wish all who read a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. i wish all who read peace in their hearts and minds and rest for their weary spirits.
i am headed to bed to thank my lucky stars for my two children and this one Christmas that we got to have together.