how did i get here?

my husband, my beautiful Dragon, died suddenly at 12:03 AM on 9 February 2009. there was a cold, lovely full moon and 3 feet of snow on the ground. i "slept" for the following 10 months and "woke" to the physical and emotional pain and torments of deep grief. i "woke" to find i had moved the day of his funeral and that i am lost. i am looking for me while i figure out the abstract, unanswerable questions that follow behind any death. my art has evolved. his death changed that as well because i am forever changed and will forever bear the mark of losing the only man i can ever love.
there is alive and there is dead and there is a place in between. i am here wholly in my heart for my children, but i feel empty inside at this time. i miss him. i have not gotten very far in my grief journey. i make no apologies for this.
this is my place, my blog, where i write to tell the universe that i am still here.

Saturday, August 22, 2009


i made the big gray dog on the left from a pair of socks from one of the widow's in the group.

the little red dog on the right I made from my husband's old cheap dollar store gloves.

both have buttons from the respective men's clothes.

my little dog has part of the broken strap from my Dragon's bivy bag from the Marine Corps. and one of his Purple Heart ribbons.

they are my trial runs.

big gray dog has gone to his home but for a short while, they sat together and shared stories. they were buddies.


judemiller1 said...

I love them both.

Suddenwidow said...

Your trial runs are great! You are so talented! Talk to you tomorrow!

Widow in the Middle said...

This is so coincidental! Yesterday, I was dropping off stuff at the storage shed and my eyes fell on a large plastic bag full of my husband's old socks. I kept some of the brown and grey ones with the intention of making teddy bears out of them!

For me, my husband's shoes and socks were hard to part with because he had stood in them and walked in the world wearing them. That is why I kept some of his socks and wanted to make something out of them.

Your samples are adorable and are inspiring me to make my sock bears sometime in the future when I have more free time. Maybe I'll be making those sock bears for my future grandchildren!

womanNshadows said...

=o} <~~ little smile for everyone.

Chillin' with Lemonade said...

Grey sock puppy says hello!

I do love them. They have brought me sweet dreams of my husband and sweet comfort!

Supa Dupa Fresh said...

These are terrific! I've always wanted to make some of these:



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