how did i get here?

my husband, my beautiful Dragon, died suddenly at 12:03 AM on 9 February 2009. there was a cold, lovely full moon and 3 feet of snow on the ground. i "slept" for the following 10 months and "woke" to the physical and emotional pain and torments of deep grief. i "woke" to find i had moved the day of his funeral and that i am lost. i am looking for me while i figure out the abstract, unanswerable questions that follow behind any death. my art has evolved. his death changed that as well because i am forever changed and will forever bear the mark of losing the only man i can ever love.
there is alive and there is dead and there is a place in between. i am here wholly in my heart for my children, but i feel empty inside at this time. i miss him. i have not gotten very far in my grief journey. i make no apologies for this.
this is my place, my blog, where i write to tell the universe that i am still here.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Bunny is going on a trip.....

...... and she'll be back with stories and photos.  her son sent her plane tickets and has a nice, long weekend for her packed with plans for fun, frivolity, and smiles.

what i'm telling Bunny {aka me}:

breathe, Bunny.  just breathe.  relax.  smell the air.  feel the sun on your little body.  sleep.   laugh.  talk.  just take it all in.

it is a wonderful world.  go enjoy the next 4 days.

no one can begrudge you a small vacation.  enjoy being with your son.

Bunny in her vaca clothes.


Sandy said...

Wow!! deserve a break. Look forward to hearing about your travels when you get back.

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