i am really in rough place. i know the reasons. can't, no, won't tell you. i don't think it really matters anyway to anyone but me. just know i am in a rough place. but i am still here. won't quit.
will never quit.
my Dragon never did, and he had been in some very rough places, actual, physical rough places and times. 'cuz, yeah, he was {is} a Marine. those guys are sent to rough places and rough places stress you out. my Dragon never gave up. so i'm not.
i also have my two children, grown though they are. never going to lay down and quit.
but i am low. tearful. exhausted. worried.
a man my Dragon and i had gotten to know during out
walks about Rockport was Paul St. Germain. he is the president of the
Thatcher Island Association. he is also spearheading the renovations to
the lightkeeper's house on my island, mine, as in all mine ~
Straitsmouth Island. or as i like to call it, mine.
anyway,
i opened email this morning and he had sent me 12 photographs of the
island and the renovation that is going on. i smiled. so bittersweet.
he said if i ever get back up there he will take me out to my island.
we'd walk around and i could take pictures to my heart's content. he
said, "dawn to sunset. the island will be yours for the day." he said
the town still and the island association still refer to it as my
island. they just remember all the hours i spent staring at that
austere and secluded piece of real estate. the lobstermen would be
hurrying in and spy me out on the rocky point off Whale Cove at the
start of the big nor'easters taking photos. they would head in. i was
staying out there.
it's home to me. and when you're in a rough place, all you can think about is going home.
