how did i get here?

my husband, my beautiful Dragon, died suddenly at 12:03 AM on 9 February 2009. there was a cold, lovely full moon and 3 feet of snow on the ground. i "slept" for the following 10 months and "woke" to the physical and emotional pain and torments of deep grief. i "woke" to find i had moved the day of his funeral and that i am lost. i am looking for me while i figure out the abstract, unanswerable questions that follow behind any death. my art has evolved. his death changed that as well because i am forever changed and will forever bear the mark of losing the only man i can ever love.
there is alive and there is dead and there is a place in between. i am here wholly in my heart for my children, but i feel empty inside at this time. i miss him. i have not gotten very far in my grief journey. i make no apologies for this.
this is my place, my blog, where i write to tell the universe that i am still here.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Quiltimus Maximus Finis !

yay!!!! it's just after noon on this eastern side of the US on the western side of the Pond and i'm taking the rest of the day OFF !

6 comments:

Boo said...

I raised my vodka and coke to you :-) WELL DONE for finishing it xx

womanNshadows said...

=0)

Widow in the Middle said...

I am so glad you are taking some time off to relax. You deserve it!

twinmom said...

It looks like such a warm, snugly, comforting quilt.

womanNshadows said...

Widow in the Middle, i haven't really stopped work unless it was to walk the dogs or fix something to eat, or drop into bed. i've sketched some and thought about things i want to make for myself while i continue working on commissions. i've had a relaxing day.

twinmom, it is warm and large. queen size bed spread rather than a quilt to pull over yourself, but it was what she wanted and i put in all the extras i usually do. i'll post the front of it after they pick it up.

Widow in the Middle said...

I'm glad you had a relaxing day but you have your nose to the grindstone so much I sure wish you had a chance for some real downtime - to spend just on yourself for a change. We all need this. I'll pretend in my mind that we live closer and invite the others to a girl's night in with goodies, manicures, music, laughter, tears, a movie or two and lots of in-depth, kind and supportive conversation.

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