how did i get here?

my husband, my beautiful Dragon, died suddenly at 12:03 AM on 9 February 2009. there was a cold, lovely full moon and 3 feet of snow on the ground. i "slept" for the following 10 months and "woke" to the physical and emotional pain and torments of deep grief. i "woke" to find i had moved the day of his funeral and that i am lost. i am looking for me while i figure out the abstract, unanswerable questions that follow behind any death. my art has evolved. his death changed that as well because i am forever changed and will forever bear the mark of losing the only man i can ever love.
there is alive and there is dead and there is a place in between. i am here wholly in my heart for my children, but i feel empty inside at this time. i miss him. i have not gotten very far in my grief journey. i make no apologies for this.
this is my place, my blog, where i write to tell the universe that i am still here.

Friday, February 4, 2011

Ambassador Bunny is in.......

Canada! she arrived today. let us all keep our hearts and thoughts on Suddenwidow and her sons as they show Bunny around and talk to her, get some things off their chests.

as Bunny makes her way around the world, i will be putting up brief posts about where Bunny is so we can, for the time she is visiting there, keep that widow and her family in our thoughts. that's what it is all about. being there for each other. supporting each other when we falter. comforting each other when we actually fall down. i will also establish a link to that widow's blog is she has one so we can all keep up with each other after Bunny has been sent on her way to another hostess.

but right now, Canada and snow, and i think Bunny is watching a movie tonight with Suddenwidow and her sons.


and on the aside, if you could take a moment and send a quiet thank you to my friend Brick who has died. he was killed while on duty. he was very kind to me. he told me stories of my Dragon and kept me laughing when all i wanted to do was cry. he had a sixth sense about when to call. i pray he is with my Dragon.


Dan, in real time. said...

I'm so sorry to read about Brick. He became a familiar voice on your blog, and on your facebook. I know he was a blessing to you, and I hope that your Dragon is now a blessing to him.

judemiller1 said...

I so enjoyed Brick's comments and know he was a good friend to you. These wonderful men of ours, serving their country so far away from their homes. I will miss him. Thank you, Brick.

bev said...

Very sorry to read this news about your friend, Brick. I wish him peace.

Boo said...

I think Bunny may be going to Portugal as well as the UK (am there from the 18th - 21st Feb approx) ;-) Jetset Bun x

Anonymous said...

i'm so sorry about your friend .. sometimes it's hard loving someone so much knowing that eventually you will be seperated by death .. but i guess that's what life is all about .. peace my friend .. and safe travels bunny .. can't wait to read all about your journeys .. C.

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