how did i get here?

my husband, my beautiful Dragon, died suddenly at 12:03 AM on 9 February 2009. there was a cold, lovely full moon and 3 feet of snow on the ground. i "slept" for the following 10 months and "woke" to the physical and emotional pain and torments of deep grief. i "woke" to find i had moved the day of his funeral and that i am lost. i am looking for me while i figure out the abstract, unanswerable questions that follow behind any death. my art has evolved. his death changed that as well because i am forever changed and will forever bear the mark of losing the only man i can ever love.
there is alive and there is dead and there is a place in between. i am here wholly in my heart for my children, but i feel empty inside at this time. i miss him. i have not gotten very far in my grief journey. i make no apologies for this.
this is my place, my blog, where i write to tell the universe that i am still here.

Friday, February 18, 2011

Dragon, dear, my dear, sweet Dragon.....





i desperately wish that you hadn't died.

7 comments:

Suddenwidow said...

Sending you a big hug. I sure understand that wish....

Lacey said...

.... that says it all

J-in-Wales said...

I wish it too.
Jxxx

megan said...

oh, the lunar anniversary...

xo

womanNshadows said...

thank you all for stopping by. peace and love.

Sandy said...

Big hugs to you...I have the same wish for my TJ.

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I love this article, I hope bunny is doing good=) Thanks man!

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