how did i get here?

my husband, my beautiful Dragon, died suddenly at 12:03 AM on 9 February 2009. there was a cold, lovely full moon and 3 feet of snow on the ground. i "slept" for the following 10 months and "woke" to the physical and emotional pain and torments of deep grief. i "woke" to find i had moved the day of his funeral and that i am lost. i am looking for me while i figure out the abstract, unanswerable questions that follow behind any death. my art has evolved. his death changed that as well because i am forever changed and will forever bear the mark of losing the only man i can ever love.
there is alive and there is dead and there is a place in between. i am here wholly in my heart for my children, but i feel empty inside at this time. i miss him. i have not gotten very far in my grief journey. i make no apologies for this.
this is my place, my blog, where i write to tell the universe that i am still here.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Bunny's map of the Ambassador's Travels

okay, Beach Bunny is very much into this tour now. the Traveling Ambassador has been gone since February 4th. her Grief and Whimsy World Tour is really getting cranked up now.

Bunny went out today, {it's her day off} and she bought a world map for the kitchen wall. the green string is where the Ambassador has been or is. the white string is where is going.
she started from Charlotte, NC and went to Saskatchewan, Canada, then on over to London.
from London, she is headed to Wales ~ note the white push pin. Bunny leaves tomorrow, Friday, for Wales. once i get the email that she has arrived in Wales, the pin changes to green.
from Wales it's Down Under to Queensland, Australia then......
up to Alaska. now Bunny sees that the string she strung has gone the long way to Alaska. she knows that the quickest way to Alaska is straight up the Pacific Ocean, but the map cuts off, and Bunny is very particular about her string.

so, Alaska and then all around the lower 48.
Alaska to Arizona, to Houston, Texas, to Portland, Maine, to South Carolina, to California, to Chicago, to St. Paul, and then home to us. me and Beach Bunny. well, to me.

as Bunny makes her way around the world, the white changes to green pins and string and i will post her map updates for all to see here.

i can hardly wait to see what all she has written in her journal. i can hardly wait to gather more photos for our mixbook.

Boo knows of other widows that would like a visit with Bunny. i am considering making another Bun and embroidering her t-shirt and jeans to send her off on a tour of her own. if you know of any widows who would like a visit from Bunny, please have them email me at: abandonedsouls@hotmail.com. Boo and i are putting together another list for a separate tour. this Bunny's tour is closed as i have little gifts accompanying her and am sending more to Australia for the new widows added recently to her list of travels.

thank you all so much for you support of this. i wish you all peace and light. and Bunny just smiles her soft, fuzzy smile and waves.

2 comments:

Boo said...

it's amazing, and it really brings it home to you just how far she is travelling :-) Love it, love her, love you. love the connections, widows reaching out to widows, it was special to write in the journal xxx

Suddenwidow said...

What an adventure Bunny is on! I look forward to keeping up with her travels while she's on the road and to reading the journal when she makes her way back to you.

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