how did i get here?

my husband, my beautiful Dragon, died suddenly at 12:03 AM on 9 February 2009. there was a cold, lovely full moon and 3 feet of snow on the ground. i "slept" for the following 10 months and "woke" to the physical and emotional pain and torments of deep grief. i "woke" to find i had moved the day of his funeral and that i am lost. i am looking for me while i figure out the abstract, unanswerable questions that follow behind any death. my art has evolved. his death changed that as well because i am forever changed and will forever bear the mark of losing the only man i can ever love.
there is alive and there is dead and there is a place in between. i am here wholly in my heart for my children, but i feel empty inside at this time. i miss him. i have not gotten very far in my grief journey. i make no apologies for this.
this is my place, my blog, where i write to tell the universe that i am still here.

Monday, March 14, 2011

gifties in the mail

i got a box in the mail. in it were a couple of gifties and a card with more gift card gifties. at first i was a little lost. no name. just a card that said i have a secret pal. i have no idea but you know where i live and that narrows it down. whoever you are, i am grateful, thankful, and without any other words to mark this wonderful thing you have done, all i have left is: thank you.

thank you, thank you, thank you.

you have no idea how wonderful and how perfectly timed this gift has come.

or maybe you do.

{Bunny turns her fuzzy little head to wipe away a stray tear of gratitude and relief.}

4 comments:

Sandy said...

So happy for you my friend. Surprise gifts are the best. Enjoy! You deserve it.

Boo said...

I want to know who is was from!!!! and it's lovely to receive surprises always <3

womanNshadows said...

i have no idea who it is from. please come forward. i would love to know.

Lonesome Dove said...

Those gifts are the absolute best! Something received unexpectedly from someone unknown. True thoughtfulness! LOVE IT!

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