how did i get here?

my husband, my beautiful Dragon, died suddenly at 12:03 AM on 9 February 2009. there was a cold, lovely full moon and 3 feet of snow on the ground. i "slept" for the following 10 months and "woke" to the physical and emotional pain and torments of deep grief. i "woke" to find i had moved the day of his funeral and that i am lost. i am looking for me while i figure out the abstract, unanswerable questions that follow behind any death. my art has evolved. his death changed that as well because i am forever changed and will forever bear the mark of losing the only man i can ever love.
there is alive and there is dead and there is a place in between. i am here wholly in my heart for my children, but i feel empty inside at this time. i miss him. i have not gotten very far in my grief journey. i make no apologies for this.
this is my place, my blog, where i write to tell the universe that i am still here.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

the 2nd handkerchief

i finished the 2nd is a close up of some detail.
i have started the 3rd.


Boo said...

wow, I think I've said this before, but I love the way they are entwined ... reminds me of the two palm trees entwined (that was the logo of the resort where we got married in Jamaica). Also reminds me of strength, power, love and soul mates. Beautiful. You certainly do have a magic needle - the Dragon was right. xxx

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