how did i get here?

my husband, my beautiful Dragon, died suddenly at 12:03 AM on 9 February 2009. there was a cold, lovely full moon and 3 feet of snow on the ground. i "slept" for the following 10 months and "woke" to the physical and emotional pain and torments of deep grief. i "woke" to find i had moved the day of his funeral and that i am lost. i am looking for me while i figure out the abstract, unanswerable questions that follow behind any death. my art has evolved. his death changed that as well because i am forever changed and will forever bear the mark of losing the only man i can ever love.
there is alive and there is dead and there is a place in between. i am here wholly in my heart for my children, but i feel empty inside at this time. i miss him. i have not gotten very far in my grief journey. i make no apologies for this.
this is my place, my blog, where i write to tell the universe that i am still here.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

the next one...


is drawn and started.

4 comments:

judemiller1 said...

Entwined---I like that.

Boo said...

reminds me of the entwined palm trees that were the logo at the resort we married and honeymooned at. This is lovely. Entwined ... or should it be entwinned (soulmates).

I love you!

twinmom said...

WOW. Beautiful.

womanNshadows said...

me ad my Dragon. entwined/entwinned/soulmates. i like that. thanks to all for talking to me.

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